So Confused, But Not Giving Up On YouTube Yet

I love YouTube. I don't love how they handle a lot of things, because they see too much with dollar signs in their eyes, and not with the future in mind, but hey most huge companies are dopey like that so it is what it is. I do love YouTube though, because it allows me the chance to fulfill a childhood dream of making my own movies, so to speak. Ever since I was a little one I have been madly in love with the movies. While I do love a vast array of different films, I'm especially referring to those magical ones from the Golden Era of Hollywood. In middle school while life wasn't the greatest, actually the worst it has ever been, they were quite literally my lifeblood. My first year in high school I actually took TV Production, because I seriously wanted to work in film, but it was a dream, and the dream did fade a bit, and I set off for a more stable career path. Ten years later I have no career, just a job, and not a very good one at that. When I say not very good I don't mean unhappy, but not making enough to live on my own, and definitely not the life I want to live. So that's where the dream comes back in to play. YouTube really offers me the chance to fulfill my childhood dream, but honestly in a much better way. I wouldn't have to deal with the craziness of the film industry, and I would have complete control over all my content I make. I'm just having the absolute hardest time wrapping my head around what videos to make. I'm kind of all over the place, and I feel like my niche is just in reach, but I can't quite get there. I have ideas running around in my head, but I can't quite put them down on paper, or in this case film them. So what I've figured out here is that I definitely need some type of niche, and it needs to either be entertaining, or informative. Those seem to be the two type of videos that people want to see the most. So what I need to do is figure out how to incorporate either one of those, or maybe both, and then make it stick out from everyone else.

What I have so far is that a lot of my videos should include my dog Skye somehow, because for one she's always with me, and I love having her with me. I'm also working on being more consistent with my Instagram page. The name is Marisandthehound, which is helping me put everything together here. It's called Marisandthehound so at least seventy-five percent of my pictures should include Skye in them. I haven't really been doing that, which is probably why I'm not gaining real followers, which makes sense and sounds pretty obvious, but I thought what I was doing, just sharing what I like, wasn't working even though it was on a schedule, because they didn't really correlate except for the fact that I like them. I need more corresponding posts, which is also very true for YouTube. Secondly, for my YouTube videos, people love dogs. They love to see them do anything, and anyone that doesn't, well I don't want them on my page anyhow so they can get out haha I'd love to go out on little adventures with her, nothing fancy, just simple things, but even simple stuff isn't really possible right now. I'm working on it, but in the mean time I have to have something else that we can do mainly at home.

I know I definitely don't want a hectic channel. There are an abundance of people screaming on YouTube. I am not one of them. I am a stereotypical Italian American female who yells, and I have to watch myself on that, but I certainly do not want that for my channel. I really want something relaxing. Kind of like Bob Ross. I know I will never be in the same league, but I'd love to emulate him just even a little bit. So I started thinking about crafts. Cool things, such as working with leather, metal, wood. Just really making beautiful works of art. Telling a few jokes and stories as I do with my dog beside me, either soaking up the sun, running off to chase something, or at least dreaming of chasing something. A calm lifestyle is the kind of life I want to live, and I know a lot of people would like to see. That's why so many people are going off grid, or moving into their vans even though they can afford a 3,000 sq ft home. A lot of us yearn for a simple life. There can still be a lot of adventure, but none of that craziness, that so many Want to add a caption to this image? Click the Settings icon. of us can be prone to.

I'm definitely keeping the "Our Talks" part of the channel even if no one ever watches that, just because I enjoy it so much. It's great to get that all off my chest, and I think one day when I do have a following it's a great place for people to share their experiences and thoughts on the different subjects I talk over. For the Vlog part, I just need to combine all the rest of what I've talked about here today, into one cohesive channel that isn't all over the place. Also, wow do I need to get better with my filming. I'm not into goofy camera work just, because it looks cool. That's just dopey as can be, but good filming is really a work of art. Just study Alfred Hitchcock,

and you'll know what I mean. So I seriously need to work on that, and challenge myself, because I do love it, I just need to get a handle on it all, and then God willing I can live out my dream. I'm not worried about becoming some famous millionaire YouTuber, but Lord in heaven above if I could make enough to take care of mine and my dog's basic needs, well I would just be the happiest person in the Universe.

Thanks for reading,

Marissa